Wednesday, February 22, 2023

Anxiety: A Blessing and a Curse

 I tell people all the time, anxiety is a blessing & a curse. The last two days were blessing days. These are the days where it presents a little more like ADHD/OCD, with a side of "it has to be done now, or you're a failure in life". 

I know that doesn't sound like a blessing, but allow me to explain (also, this may not be in the exact order it played out, but it sums everything up).


~We bought a new dresser for our bedroom, which led me to move the entertainment shelf that was in our bedroom to the basement.
~That led to me moving the little table we had in the basement holding the cable box back to the living room as a drink table for the leopard chair.
~Which led to me changing out the coasters in the living room to more theme-appropriate ones (this is our music room, so now we have music coasters).
~This led to me realizing I could empty a box in our dining room (just off the living room) that's been sitting in there for 3 years, because the stuff in it needed to be on the basement entertainment shelf/in basement storage.
~Once I moved that stuff to the basement, I emptied the dryer (also in the basement) of all the towels, and headed back up to the bedroom. Folded and put all of the towels in the linen closet in our en suite.
~All bed linens that were in the top of our linen closet (which is very awkwardly built, you kind of have to angle stuff under the door frame to get it onto the shelf), I moved into the dresser, where they're more easily reached. This also required me to learn to properly fold a fitted sheet, because I always look up the best way to fold things to maximize space.
~That allowed me to move things on the floor of the closet up to the top shelf.
~Which prompted me to decide to unpack the two big boxes that have been on the floor of the closet since we moved in.
~That led to me creating a trash pile, so I started a garbage bag.
~Which led to me gathering all of the trash from the rooms upstairs, and changing the litter box.
~While emptying said boxes, I freed up a 3-drawer organizer that was perfect for all of the loose hardware we have around the house, AND let me use my new label maker again!
~That allowed me to empty/sort several ziplock bags of said hardware + misc. stuff that had been bagged up during the flood.

All of that, on top of doing my regular everyday kitchen cleaning (it's my morning meditation) both days, and 2 loads of laundry (plus cooking 3 times each day, AND making a batch of tortillas and pitcher of sweet tea). 

None of this is to brag/look for praise, but more because I feel like we always look at downside of our mental struggles, and don't often celebrate our strengths/accomplishments that come from how our brains are wired.

Sidenote: I said a while ago I was going to try and blog more, and you see how that panned out, but don't be fooled by my published blogs. I've written several. Two are still sitting in drafts, waiting for the day I decide to publish or delete. The others have been deleted for fear of judgement, or because I just changed my mind about what I wanted to say. I might just not be built to be a regular blogger. Maybe once I settle in to a more regular routine... but that's a blog for another day. 😉